Saturday, August 23, 2008
I don't like you God.
You somehow always know my deepest darkest secrets.
You tend to put me in situations where I don't feel comfortable.
You always make me feel such deep guilt when I do something I shouldn't have.
You somehow will, out of nowhere, drop a big responsibility on me which I don't want.
You make me feel like crap whenever I come in front of you, where I feel so insignificant, tiny and small...
But,
It's always you who solves my deepest darkest problems.
It's always you who let me know that you're by my side the whole time.
It's always you who let me know that I have done wrong and gave me a chance to turn.
It's always you who gives me the best. Even when I think I'm insufficient and unsuitable for big things.
It's always you who open your arms wide whenever I come to you in seek of refuge and need, and carry me throughout the storm.
I want to love you, lord. Teach me.
I want to walk beside you through my life. Don't leave me.
I want to be able dance and sing for you. Let me.
I want to stand in awe when I'm surrounded by your glory. Fill the blanks in me.
I just want to, forever and ever and ever worship you, my lord. I want to.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
As I cry now, lord. I pray you can forgive all I've done. Let me lord, let me come back to you.
I can only imagine what my life is without you.
I love you, my God, my Father, my Lord.
(I am just a little boy looking for his father, again.)
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